LAST THREE MONTHS

hey dear journal,

my past three months

dec:- the best month of my life.
unparalleled the best month of my life , because my bro got married ,,,,,,yeppie.
and i got the best bhabhi in the world, she is just great, i have not connected so well with any other person in the world. she is awesome.i had great fun throughout the month.

26th- the d-day when it finally happened . My bro is not a bachelor any more :) .


and then We spent few wonderful days with bhabhi, great happy days.


Jan: time to go back to manipal.
Manipal is better than the last two sems. I am much better . seeing things more clearly. thinking more clearly. and am back with friends again.


and probably one of the most imp thigns in MY life happened ART OF LIVING.

AOL is not sum religious nutjob course that tells you to become a sadhu or something.
Priya di said things that we knew deep down to be correct but she did it in such a way that we could no longer ignore it.
she is great , reminds me of my bhabhi alot. she is sweet , happy person. very pleseant to be around her :).
thanx priya di.

AOL has changed my life in many ways.

feb: It has just started . lets see how it pans out . i Know it will be good.

JAI GURU DEV

its been almost six months since i last wrote in this journal.
probably because i have been fine for the last six months.Unfortunately not any more.I still have that problem that i`ve been talking about, and I am starting to wonder whether there is a solution for it.I have tried different ways to tackle it or manage it and have had momentary success but int he end that problem (self inflicted) always comes on top.
few days back i read a quote and i put it on facebook
"I had to be fired to get fired up", now i wonder what the fuck will it take to get me fired up.

I surrender .

I have truely lost the will and energy, the strength and the courage to fight.

I have been a man of intelligence and self respect and confidence for 19 yrs,

Now I am man of self pity, broken confidence and daft decisions.

The most important thing in life

hi ,

what is the most important thing in life?

IS it friends , family , Money , power, is it life itself..................I believe the answer to this question is the Key To Happiness. The day you figure it out is the day you get your priorities right, that is the day when you start working in the right direction. You know what your problems are and you can focus your energy in the pursuit of happiness.

But for me happiness comes from within..........
I could be sitting alone in my room and be very happy , or i could be with 20 friends and feel pathetic. As I said in my previous post things have never been better in my life except one thing, and now i have finally figured out the problem and it is fear.
throughout my life I have found it within myself to face my fears.......I have always faced the problems head on .......and I have always come on top. But sadly not anymore.I am running from my fear and it is not me .

another day goes by

hi,

Have you ever felt that something just died inside you, when everything in life is going right for you but you are still not happy.Well this is something that has happened to me and i just cant figure life out right now. I just won an MUN , I just did my dream event, life is going smooth but i am just not happy from inside. I had a great group of friends , we used to hang out alot together but slowly it started to disintegrate, now even though i have a lot of great friends I find myself alone in this world, I could have never imagined myself in this position.

today:

well today was just another day in my monotonous life, my exams are getting near and near and i a in the worst position ever, i want to study but every time i sit down to do it ............i just can`t . I finally think that by putting all my feelings in this blog i will find an answer to all my questions.
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lets see if i am right.

the day i started this blog

hi,

I am writing this blog more for myself than anybody else . As you all know a lot of people write journals to express themselves or just get things out of there system. But most of them.,.........well actually all of them like to keep their it a secret they dont like anybody reading it. I disagree , i think that the there should be atleast one person who should read it and share their thoughts on it with you . Unfortunately I dont have anyone like that right now so i am putting my feelings into the void of internet for everyone to reflect on.

introduction

hi people,

I am a 19 yrs old engineering student from manipal. My life has been pretty simple for most part of it , except recently. I was born and brought up New Delhi, India. I did my schooling from Guru Harikrishan Public School (India Gate) till standard 10th and after that I moved TO St.Columba`s school. Since early childhood I have been interested in science, I could not imagine life without science. When i was in 7th my brother got into IIT Delhi , and obviously i got hooked to the idea of being an engineer. I gave all my entrance exams after 12th and finally landed in MIT manipal and life has been fun since .